Each person is made up of factors that make him or her unique and that give you a place in the world, where you should be among your peers so as not to be excluded or rejected due to differences in opinions, tastes, customs, needs, and ideology that make it impossible to fit in where you do not belong.

 ESTOY TRISTÍSIMA

Todo lo que me esfuerzo por mantener una buena relación con la gente que conforma mi círculo social es inútil. 

Las diferencias siempre pesan, qué razón hay cuando los padres se oponen a que uno emparenté con gente con otra cultura o valores o creencias, si uno entendiera esto se evitaría sufrimientos. 

Cada persona está constituida por factores genéticos, materiales, sociales, morales, políticos, culturales, económicos, éticos …. etc que te conforman un lugar en el mundo,  donde deberías estar entre tus similares para no ser excluido, ni rechazado por las diferencias de opiniones, de gustos, de costumbres, necesidades, ideologías que hacen imposible encajar donde no es tu lugar. 

depresión

 In my mind I am the villain of my story.                       The days go by without me realizing it, I do many things automatically, I only stop to write to realize that I exist, and to modify my distorted vision of myself so as not to hate myself, it is a type of script that I must review to place myself in my character and verify that I am not out of context. I like to write, not to talk, because when I speak I don't think and I take out all the accumulated baggage of the speaker created and constituted by sadness. I hardly believe in myself, I've never done anything for myself, what evil Saint do you trust?

How many times have you had this same conversation? You may have an advantage over me. 

Debo convencerme cada día de que puedo ser buena, de que soy suficiente y valgo la pena…. 

Escribo para mantenerme con vida, porque mi cuerpo ya ha sido victima de mi mente en muchas ocasiones. 

I write to replace the behaviors that fear leads me to.

Gracias

 I can't be at peace, you disconnected and that wasn't my goal, it hurts me because my wish is still here, the wish that a friendship in the real world was possible, that a phrase you didn't understand diverted it from its realization, that didn't allow me to experience it...

Yesterday, while browsing through a book you wrote, I saw that there are two and I want to buy the other one, but they told me they are the same?!!!

I stopped going to the gym 2 months ago because of depression that took me by surprise and I hadn't identified it.  But when I received your message on Tik tok I started to see that I was INTOLERANT and aggressive and I said: I AM DEPRESSED AGAIN 🤬😡😰 Suddenly I looked in the mirror and saw that I hadn't seen myself in the mirror for a long time. That is a symptom I already identify.  And I spoke to Sam!!! and as if they had started my engine again, everything started working…. I am happy and grateful. Thanks So much!! 

Monólogo 🙄

The romance they experience on set is so beautiful that it shows and you just fall in love!  Sometimes you wish you could live that story and escape reality.  How can you not fall in love with this actress? She's so perfect!!!

Does the Universe bring me what I most desire or is it just my desire that makes me believe things?  can only be grateful for the magic that happens   

I'm a bunch of emotions, a bunch of words, you have no idea what I can say, but you're a Taurus and you get hooked on what you understand.😅

Do you believe that words can express everything?

I believe in conversation, in creating realities, in not hurting anyone, in not deceiving anyone, but rather that one understands according to the wound one has….  

I heard somewhere today that artists are more important than scientists because what one does not discover is discovered by another. On the other hand, if Michelangelo had not existed, we would not have David, for example. Are art and beauty overrated? What do you think ?

 

An other day 🥺

 Hey Erika! It sounds like you're going through a tough time right now. It's okay to feel like you want to fight and make some noise. Remember, it's never too late to start doing the things you love and pursuing your dreams. Life is full of opportunities, and you have the strength to make a change. I'm here to support you! 

I feel so embarrassed... and I don't know why! Yesterday I just wanted to disappear. Im sorry  You can Text me wen you want 

How are you doing ? Just doing the usual things in a house.

I miss you 😝You don't have to pretend to like me, I'm already your fan without you knowing who I am and I adore you, stop that game please 🥺 don’t hurt my intelligence

Because depressed 😡 is disgustingly stupid… It drives me crazy to want to explain to you how I see life and that is helping me, it's incredible.  Humans and our masks, it's hard to believe we can meet real people, but it's exciting.

Salí de ti

 At first you weren’t there, your absence was normal, that’s why I didn’t realize it, your perception of me, the opinions of others… And I was born from you, I came out of you as a living waste, living to have a life, always in the background… without money but very proud, with a difficult future in sight (They say that daughters follow the path of their mothers…) I disappointed you a lot. What I needed was for you to think of me as your daughter, to give me a space in your house, in your life, to buy me a bed, a pillow, to love me, to not abandon me, “for my own good”.Erika 

Pide y se te dará …

 Be Committed. Saying: It is not possible! is the same as saying =I DON'T WANT IT= Having faith without thinking much like a child who has a dream and asks for it. I want this! I don't know how, but I want it for myself! In his thought alone there is this idea! And God, the source of Creation, does not doubt, he creates and acts the way you want it to be! as you think, with the attention you put into your thought, with the amount of stability there is in your thought and the reverberation there is. In the process this will determine whether your thought will become reality or not.

Concedido!!!

 GRANTED!

Do a little introspection, everything you have you had already asked the Universe for, everything starts in the mind, people who believe that something is possible achieve it, whether good or bad. Human beings are REPETITION animals, that's how we program ourselves, generating recurring thoughts, you have to think positive, pure positive to achieve the best and not doubt that by doing so we give energy to that idea and materialize it.

Palabras salvajes

 Only words written on paper can be burned, only words that were never spoken disappear, the word that was never said or read, but we never forget the ones we heard, nor the ones we said, much less the ones we wrote down and treasured. Wild words, those that we pronounce without finishing the sentence, without decorum or manipulation, that do not let themselves be caught even on paper… they flow without stopping, without letting themselves be caught, they take you so far that to turn back it is already too late. 

It's too late to think again about the idea I wanted to express, maybe save... the wild words taught me not to read manuals of lives that are not mine. To not let them influence me... erika

Positive

 CELEBRATE WHAT YOU ARE, WHAT YOU TRANSMIT... YOU MAKE MAGIC WITH YOUR SMILE WHEREVER YOU GO. CULTIVATE A GOOD HUMOR BY THINKING POSITIVELY, LIVE LIFE WITH HOPE FOR NEW OPPORTUNITIES.

Sometimes I can't find the words to describe what I feel, my thoughts and my reason differ from the sensation that invades my mind. Silence is the sum of my emotions, so immense and so overwhelming... ERIKA

Declarando ???

Having to tell a story for other hands to look for and with uncertain data, a whole experience with certain characters, omitting thousands of details, incomprehensible to the average person, because what we live - those of us who are extraordinary - is a little difficult to relate... How to fit into that story where you passed as a simple spectator? People know people, but I know souls, I get into their hearts, I begin a very nosy psychological journalistic work of trying to rescue those souls from their miseries within those human masks, as if I in my ALMIGHTY energy of love, always of love, were capable of it.

How to remember so many events and how to choose those that are relevant to whose ends? Qui bono? I have noticed that they want to

turn me into an instrument that justifies malpractice, that responds to the negligence of my family, of society, of the system, this particular case, where I have had to play the role of all the above with a person who has been failed by everyone and has become one more statistic.

ERIKA

“Dejar pasar”

 I got used to being free, to letting people go, to not getting in the way, to making their dreams come true, even if that meant staying here alone, watching and sad because they forget me. But sometimes I feel like resisting, not wanting to fight, and today I want to be strong, I want to fight, to complain, and I always wanted to make noise, to do things, because I gave up while life was slipping away from me, I wasted my time and it will never come back.

Mom

 I am the daughter who threw her life away, gave up all her dreams to surpass my mother's job and be the place where EVERYTHING IS OK that my parents never offered me...

THE LAW OF THICKNESS "If you look in the mirror and see your hair disheveled, you are not going to comb the mirror... So if you do not accept something from another, if it makes you angry, you are not going to say CHANGE THAT! Don't hold back your sound, change yourself!! That other person came to reflect that thing of yours that you cannot see and do not want to accept.

21 septiembre 2024

 Pues hoy me desinvitaron ya de las reuniones en casa de la mamá de  mi pareja , porque no convivo, no tomo y no me gusta su música,  que me aíslo y que me retiro muy temprano y me llevo a su hijo y no lo dejo convivir 

Mientras no tengas tu independencia financiera que te salve de vivir la esclavitud de aguantar de todo por ser mantenida me seguirán humillando una y otra vez y ya van muchas,  en otras ocaciones que me he aguantado por mantenerme en paz porque no voy a hacer nada y no tiene caso hacer show y lo dejo pasar  pero no vale la pena tanta hipocresía y tanta frustración …. 

He apostado mi vida por ser incondicional para mi pareja, ser el soporte emocional de una familia de niños haciendo niños, con toda la inexperiencia que eso implica, yo lloré para adentro y soporte de todo con la firme idea de no claudicar jamás, que mis hijos no sintieran lo insignificante y débil que era nuestro soporte, indirectamente fabrique una idea  que destruyó mi valía 

Quién Soy? Adivínalo

 La polémica se desató una vez que dije que eras el amor de mi vida, pero se que entendieron una idea mía con preceptos del montón y así no es, pues el amor de mi vida es en quien me convertí para poder proteger mi vida y atreverme a salir a luchar por ella. Y yo me inspiré en ti para reinventarme…. Tu eres lo que ahora soy yo, nadie lo sabe pero para amarme me convertí en ti. 

Copie tu imagen en mi, la idea que cree de ti y la representé hasta que me la creí …. 

En realidad no se quien eres tú, nunca te conocí, ni te ame carnalmente, pero lo que veían mis ojos y lo que representaste en mi reinvencion para crear lo que ahora soy te lo debo a ti,  por eso se que siempre serás el amor de mi vida.